I don't know whether i should believe in it or not.. U got me confused about the facts. I have no idea which one is true you know? I am really confused.. There are factors that really make me wonder.. A usual strict parents will allow child to go out during late night? A usual firm and refusal to go out child would suddenly go out alone with someone on late night? I don't think that's you. I chose not to believe in it.

Maybe i am jealous, Maybe i am angry, Maybe i am sad. It's a mixture of all these feelings. It makes me feel complex, vexed, and restless. You claimed that she went out, you then claimed that you lied after you know that i am angry. What next should i believe in? I don't even know whether your next speech would be a fact, or just a fiction. True enough, i may be too over protective, afterall, it's someone's freedom i am seeing to.. Why should i invade someone's privacy. Everyone have their own privacy. It's not within my control.

Day by day, it gets stronger. Certainly, it affects me, both positively, AND negatively. Positively, it motivates me. It pushed me to do things i always hated, things i never wanted to touch, and most importantly, pushed me to study. Negatively, it affects me emotionally. I am not a psycho. I can't read thoughts. I don't know what to do sometimes. Sometimes, i feel like giving up, but i know, i came a long way and the key is perservere. Yes, perservere...

Maybe you have already started, maybe.. Under a very low profile whereby nobody actually knows. Or maybe you don't even want it known. Maybe parents sometimes allow their child to go out during late nights. Maybe personality changes over times.. Maybe.. Just maybe.. Yes, Maybe...

Feelings are complex, mixed. It's like mixing chemicals. Ready to produce any precipitate anytime, ready to blow off anytime.. I don't know what happened was true or was it just a pure lie you told me about her. Lets just hope that it's a lie.. Lets just hope.. Hope...