Everything is not going well at this moment. Everything.

Complaints received on me at work. Having problems completing my assignments and homework. Meeting deadlines for work and school. Losing social life day by day. Most of all, losing you.

It's amazing how I had found and returned to this blog after going on a hiatus for so long. But I am glad I found this back where I can rant to myself and wake myself to reality that you are gone.

I miss your touch, love, care, smile and you.
But I guess this is how things are turning out. Till the end, I am disappointed with your reactions. But I still love you. Why? A painful choice, but a choice that will benefit you in the future.

A choice that allows a better man to hold your hand down the future. Because I, will only add on further to the frustrations, anger, sadness and I should never be so selfish. I am being selfish perhaps now. But one day when you look back, you will probably see this in a different light. You will start feeling relieved that you left me. Hopefully. Pain will only last that long. Leave all the burdens behind and go.

As for me, Thomas stay strong. Be strong
 Grow stronger. You need to, because you will be the one to carry these burdens for the rest of your life. :')